# @shmangieee on Instagram

- **Type:** Video
- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/C3VUIhjrjI6
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/11099968-shmangieee-instagram
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- **Posted:** 2024-02-14T15:50:50.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Ang (@shmangieee) — https://gondola.cc/shmangieee

## Caption

The only footage and content we got from Nationals…. 

Not gonna lie…, this loss beat me up. I was in a funk for a good minute.  It was a bad game day for sure. I put soooooo much into this competing season and to end the way I did was kinda a kick to the tits lol. 

I knew on stage it was just bad. My tan was sweating off, my suit was annoying, I felt uncomfortable, life was lifing and everything was just off. It was not my best and that’s okay.  I saw the stage photos right after and I literally just repressed the show 😂. A loss in lacrosse hasn’t hurt me this bad lol. 

Time heals all. I took some time to focus on me and the relationships I have in my life. I’m just now comfortable talking about it… posting it. 

I try to stay raw on here, post the downs just as much as the ups. I don’t mind showing my struggle.  And I don’t mind people watching me struggle. I sit here and EMBRACE THE SUCK daily. 

So here it is… underboob and all. Raw as hell. NPC Nationals 

I’m starting to get excited again.  Season 2 loading 😤 #roadtopro

🎥: itsarielkhadr

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