# @behindtheracquet on Instagram

- **Type:** Image
- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/CTm93SaA6sA
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/158822-behindtheracquet-instagram
- **Thumbnail:** https://img.gondola.cc/tr:w-,h-,fo-auto/postThumbnails/8a77dfec73.jpg
- **Posted:** 2021-09-09T17:13:40.000+00:00

## Caption

“I liked tennis because it was an individual sport. I wanted the responsibility on me. You could either win or lose, but because of your own fault. There is not something specific that threw me into it, but the whole thing — I love the whole thing. The competition, the screaming, the match after match.

Being a defensive player, I was winning a lot from the mistakes of the others. My coaches were pushing me to be aggressive, and then I lost my game because I don't think players should change their games.

We started the tournaments when I was 18. 350 with so much pressure of winning, and I start losing. I was not sleeping, I was dreaming that they would take off my contract. I was on court. I was suffering. I had no one to rely on.

You question if you're doing the right thing. In my case, I really enjoy playing and I love tennis, so I was never like, "Oh, do I want to do that?" because I knew.

Deep down, I always believed in myself, and I always knew, like, "Okay. Maybe I have some pressure. It will be a bit difficult, but there will come a time where it will turn." I was always believing in me. I was always a pretty logical person.

Suddenly, they wanted to change my maturity as well, which was no problem. When you don't win, it's tough for the coaches to take responsibility. You're talking with an 18-year-old girl. I was pretty mature for my age. You can't really put all the blame on her. 

When you're 18, you want to be famous and, of course, a good tennis player, but you focus not on the process, just on the results. Right now, I'm seeing it more. If I improve myself, if I do this and that, then I will have a chance to be in the top 100. I will do it because I love it.

I'm 28 years old and I've been losing money throughout these whole years. I went through operations. I went through mental issues, but I'm still here. I could have quit, but I really love it. I'm just like, "Okay. I will enjoy the process, and I will play, and I will improve as much as I can, and let's see where my limits or my money or whatever, where it will bring me." @despipapamichail #BTR

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| Name | Username | Profile | Role |
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| Behind The Racquet | @BehindTRacquet | https://gondola.cc/BehindTRacquet | Brand |
| Sarah Campbell | @SarahCampbs | https://gondola.cc/SarahCampbs | Copywriter |

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