# @hopewdm on Instagram

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- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/B7Y8aHLAVpq
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/16338768-hopewdm-instagram
- **Thumbnail:** https://img.gondola.cc/tr:w-,h-,fo-auto/thumbnails/7dff159e55.jpg
- **Posted:** 2020-01-16T17:58:07.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** HOPE (@HopeWDM) — https://gondola.cc/HopeWDM

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Last year, at this time, I was hospitalized due to mental illness. There were so many things going through my mind then, and it was hard to feel God’s goodness. I knew all the things that people say to someone when they are struggling, and since that was my job, it felt meaningless when others reciprocated it. I was ashamed and embarrassed but also frustrated with God. How could he allow this to happen to someone who has dedicated to serving others just as he did? After 15 days inpatient and 8 weeks of outpatient, my heart was open to see where God was and what he was up too. This was the hardest thing I had done in my life; however, God was with me the whole time. Through a few amazing people, God made himself known. Text messages, phone calls, home cooked meals, gift cards, babysitting my son, showing up for my husband, and coming to visit me in the hospital- God sent me hope. My biggest prayer prior to any of this happening was that I wanted to fully surrender to him. I don’t think God did this to me, but I think God used this experience to show me how I can fully trust him.⁣
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This situation humbled me and opened my eyes to mental health, but even more to addiction. I spent several days with adults who struggled in these ways, which gave me new insight to some of the parents of the students I serve. Someone asked if I was I afraid others might think that I wasn’t qualified to do this job or judge what had happened to me. I replied, “God doesn’t call the qualified. God qualifies the call, and that is exactly what he has done with me.” I am beyond thankful for Hope and the amazing people that showed up for me during my darkest time. The best gift you can give someone is something they can never repay you for, and that’s exactly what they did. These individuals are true reflections of Jesus and his love. Thanks Hope!⁣
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#PiecesFromHope⁣
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Amber D.⁣
Student Ministry Care Coordinator⁣

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