# @joyjoysfitness_ on Instagram

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- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/DEqFRpRvkde
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/25944833-joyjoysfitness-instagram
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- **Posted:** 2025-01-10T19:54:28.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** joy sistina :) (@joyjoysfitness_) — https://gondola.cc/joyjoysfitness_

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NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE ✨🫶🏻

After I broke my ankle, my doctors told me I couldn’t do gymnastics anymore, my heart was shattered.
Gymnastics was my identity, my purpose, my reason, my why. At 15 years old, having the biggest part of your identity taken away from you is overwhelming, and unbelievably painful. I was truly lost after losing gymnastics. 

As a gymnast, we burn a lot of calories because of the intensity of training. I grew up never having to worry about what I was eating. Once gymnastics was gone, my body inevitably started to change. 15 year old joy was freaking out, and of course took to the internet to “fix” the changes my body was making. I started running every day, counting my calories and eating way too little to sustain my 115lbs body. I became obsessed with the number on the scale. It was the only thing I felt like I could control in my life. I remember sitting on the floor, calling my mom balling my eyes out, not even being able to stand up because if I did I was going to pass out due to the little amount of food my body was running off of. 15 years old.

They don’t teach you about the mental struggle of losing a sport. They don’t prepare young athletes for the depression that comes after you are done playing the sport that has made up such a huge part of your life. I felt unworthy of eating most days, unworthy of life, useless.

Somewhere deep deep down, there was still that fire fueling something inside of me. I started going to the gym, and actually training to get stronger. Seeing the number on bench, squat, and deadlift go up and being able to focus on that number instead of the number on the scale saved me.
Mindset shift. I needed to eat to grow, to get stronger, to BECOME the strongest I could possibly be. That fire that has been dulled for so long, all of a sudden was lit again.

Impossible? Nothing is impossible. Where there is a will, there is a way. Life is full of ups and downs, but when you feel like you are beat down, at rock bottom, remember the only way to go is up. Kobe once said, “rest at the end, not in the middle” and I live by that every single day.

@gymshark Code JOY10 🦈

#powerlifting #eatingdisorderrecovery

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| Name | Username | Profile | Role |
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| Tage Gerena | @tageprod | https://gondola.cc/tageprod | Photographer |

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