# @shoutyourabortion on Instagram

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- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/CIV4UpsJOOS
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/34221202-shoutyourabortion-instagram
- **Thumbnail:** https://img.gondola.cc/tr:w-,h-,fo-auto/postThumbnails/56640c43fc.jpg
- **Posted:** 2020-12-03T16:12:50.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Shout Your Abortion (@shoutyourabortion) — https://gondola.cc/shoutyourabortion

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“I was 13. After telling my mentally abusive boyfriend that I had missed my period, I didn’t hear from him for weeks. I remember going out to dinner one night with my family at Ruby Tuesday’s. When I stood up to leave the restaurant, I got dizzy. I knew at this point that I couldn’t keep denying the pregnancy, that I needed help, and that I had to tell my mom. I sat down with her a few nights later. With tears in my eyes, I gained the courage to mutter the words ‘I’m pregnant.’ I assured her that I did not want to keep the child and I would have to get an abortion. She stood up, walked away, and didn’t kiss me goodnight when I went to bed.
I remember praying to God that if he took this pregnancy away, I’d never have sex again. I remember hating myself. I remember feeling shame, guilt, and being disgusted. I remember being scared.

…I repressed the experience. I hated myself for it. A year after the abortion, I fell into a spiraling depression. I didn’t know what to feel, I just knew that I didn’t feel good.

…I struggle with feeling like I should be okay, but that’s the farthest from the truth. I am allowed to grieve. I am allowed to be upset. I am allowed to feel. I will be okay. Maybe not today, but eventually.

My advice to you, if you’re considering, if you’re healing, or if you’re simply reflecting on your experience in comparison to others: Don’t bottle up the emotions. Don’t be afraid to reach out for support. Don’t be afraid to grieve the loss. Don’t pretend it didn’t happen. It’s okay to not know how to feel. It’s okay to not feel anything at all. No matter what happened, your experience is valid. Let other people know what they can do to help you heal. Be real with yourself about what YOU can do to help you heal.
Most importantly, trust the process and love yourself. No matter what.” ❤️ Visit the URL on the graphic to read the full story at our website. #shoutyourabortion #abortion #aborcja #abortolegal #humanrights #healing

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shoutyourabortion, humanrights, healing, abortion, aborcja, abortolegal

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