# @shoutyourabortion on Instagram

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- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/CDUEpq4JPg3
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/34221426-shoutyourabortion-instagram
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- **Posted:** 2020-07-31T16:45:06.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Shout Your Abortion (@shoutyourabortion) — https://gondola.cc/shoutyourabortion

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“I had an abortion not too long ago. I was feeling really sad about it afterwards and stumbled on this site, all your stories made me feel less selfish and more understood. I’d like to tell my story in hopes that it connects some.

…In my mind I had thought maybe I was 3 or 4 weeks. But when she said 7 weeks along, that’s almost 2 months, I was lowkey freaking out inside. I suddenly felt a giant wave of guilt, shame, and anxiety hit me. I never wanted to be in this situation. Nobody does. You start to question your morals, your religion, what your family would think of you right now. But I stopped and reminded myself, “You can not love something until you love yourself.” And thought about my mother. Her anxiety attacks, her sadness and depression, her fits of anger, her telling me and my brother that we ruined her life and her goals. And how I knew, that was the exact kind of mother I would end up being, because I was not ready. I still needed to work on myself, reach my goals, travel and show myself love and affection first. This is my life and I must feed my soul and become my best self so that one day and I can be the best mom. I can change the course of my destiny thanks to modern science and I will always be grateful for that. Waves of guilt and regret still come and go. I am very spiritual and on a daily basis ask the universe for forgiveness for I did not feel ready to accept their gift. I can admit I’m still mourning the possible life I could’ve started with the little bean. But I don’t mourn the person I would’ve become. It’s okay to feel conflicted with your choice. The main reason I feel guilt is because materially yes I could provide for a child, so naturally many would urge you to keep it. But emotionally I was not ready to provide, for I am still learning to love myself. It’s okay, I am not ready…one day I will be.”

Visit our stories or the URL on the graphic to read the full story at our website. 💙 #shoutyourabortion #abortion #proabortion #stopthebans #humanrights #spirituality

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spirituality, shoutyourabortion, proabortion, stopthebans, humanrights, abortion

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