# @alazay_official on Instagram

- **Type:** Image
- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/B9POvb0H2mn
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/35706650-alazay-official-instagram
- **Thumbnail:** https://img.gondola.cc/tr:w-,h-,fo-auto/postThumbnails/15fa2b2d91.jpg
- **Posted:** 2020-03-02T16:28:42.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Jessie Stafford Park (@alazay_official) — https://gondola.cc/alazay_official

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Dear ryanleeperkins ,

I’m completely numb and truly overwhelmingly heartbroken. I can’t digest losing you, not ever being able to hear your voice again or seeing your face light up anymore. You’ve become such a fixture in my life... long hours on the phone talking through everything and reminding one another how strong we are and that we both have one another’s back, being there if anyone needs anything ( you’ve come and supported every one of my events, I promised to always watch over your girls), waking up to texts of you always reminding me you love me and are proud of me, me calling you and meeting you up to make sure you knew that you’re loved and this is only the beginning of this crazy journey called life.

We met at tayloractingstudio & we instantly became friends. You were new from SD and something about you made me feel your heart was genuine and that’s where our friendship grew. Since then we’ve bonded in ways I haven’t had with people who’ve known me forever. In a short time you always shined bright in my life and cared for me for who I was even when I couldn’t.

You’re an amazing father to your two beautiful daughters, loving child to your parents & such a loyal and trusting friend. You became a brother to me & now I have to accept that I can never call you again. I fucking can’t believe this. I miss you so much already, my stomach aches and I just wish there was more time to have spent together.

I will always love you & make sure you are remembered as you are now, a guardian angel watching over us. I’m SoOOooOOoOOo sorry I didn’t tell you I loved you more, you truly deserved so much more. Thanks for being my rock and never making me feel crazy when I was crazy. I love you so much.... #restinparadisemybrother #iloveyousomuch #neverkeptyourshirton #imissyourlaughalready
#ifuckingcant

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neverkeptyourshirton, iloveyousomuch, imissyourlaughalready, ifuckingcant, restinparadisemybrother

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