# @jeffkmarsh on Instagram

- **Type:** Image
- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/DQlHg_xDRCC
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/36582685-jeffkmarsh-instagram
- **Thumbnail:** https://img.gondola.cc/tr:w-,h-,fo-auto/postThumbnails/13e6af470c.jpg
- **Posted:** 2025-11-03T03:54:34.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Jeff Marsh (@jeffkmarsh) — https://gondola.cc/jeffkmarsh

## Caption

Fall.  Oh, Fall.  I’ve generally had a mixed bag of big emotions for the post-summer season.  Being a PNW kid, fall meant some of the best hiking on earth, with the incoming gloom of yet another abysmal winter.  I started working full-time in summers at 14.  Summers have never been chill, and has been the case for my 16-year career, as photo work is seasonal no matter where you live.  I’ve never really looked forward to fall because I never wanted what little summer I had to end.

As I got older, that feeling worsened, dramatically.  It turned in to full on Seasonal Depressive Disorder, which, more people suffer from than not, but gets masked by all sorts of things.  For me, it’s hit extra hard, as I’ve battled several very heavy depression and anxiety disorders my entire life.  Fall-out from brutal trauma, sexual-abuse, PTSD, untreated ADD - the list goes on.  Life was really freakin hard.  Relentless and prolonged pain.  Never-ending.  And my body FEELS it in fall.  Short days, cold bones, no work, and months of winter misery to follow.  Sounds dramatic, but if you know, you know.

Winters affected me so much that I wanted to leave for almost a decade before we finally hitched our lives up to a truck and hit the open road in 2021.  I realized just how bad it was when I had to check myself into a depression recovery center for a month in Nov, 2018.  I had to figure something out because I couldn’t cope any longer.  I realized I needed a new environment.

That first winter away from WA, which we spent in the RV in FL, I realized just how deeply the cold, gray and wet PNW winters had affected me.  Oct 1 arrived and my body, which had kept score, was ready to go into fight or flight mode.  Same thing on a Nov 1.  Again on Dec 1.  Until I realized that my whole being might not actually shut down.  Which it didn’t, for the first winter ever.  My body still has those scores, and I have to be VERY intentional and aware when Oct rolls around.  Fall in the south feels like summer in the NW, so Oct and I are good now.  But the time change kills.  My body and soul simply need light.  So, find me outside sun up to sun down.  And keep going!

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## Credits

| Name | Username | Profile | Role |
| --- | --- | --- | --- |
| Jeff Marsh | @jeffkmarsh | https://gondola.cc/jeffkmarsh | Photographer |

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