# @allieandsam on TikTok

- **Type:** Video
- **Original URL:** https://www.tiktok.com/@allieandsam/video/7572041917655977234
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/36883281-allieandsam-tiktok
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- **Posted:** 2025-11-13T03:09:59.000+00:00

## Caption

Every time I’ve ever been pregnant, it’s ended in miscarriage 👼🏻 💔 4 years ago (but honestly it feels like it was yesterday) I did my last embryo transfer.  My third embryo transfer after 3 rounds of IUI and a round of IVF.  By this point I’d lost a lot of hope, but it worked!  And not only did we get a few positive tests, they kept getting darker and darker. And we got a positive beta. And our next beta was more than doubled. And we went for an ultrasound at 6 weeks and everything looked perfect. The doctor even pointed out where she thought she saw the heartbeat.  And then at 8 weeks that heartbeat wasn’t there anymore.  My wife ended up getting pregnant, even though she never wanted to be, and gave birth to our beautiful twin boys.  I love being a mom and they are truly the light of my life. I’m so thankful for my rainbow babies. 🥹🌈 But I’ve always dreamed of being pregnant, experiencing the kicks and movements, and giving birth.  That’s not the experience I got.  And I’m worried it’s an experience I’ll never get to have.  We have 4 frozen embryos still and a couple of vials of our donor left just in case. But what if those don’t work either?  Our doctors never found a reason for my recurrent pregnancy loss.  We could keep trying for another baby and it could never work. And to be honest, that would be hard to make peace with. 🤍 #miscarriageawareness #ivfjourney #pregnancyloss #missedmisscarriage 

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- **Views:** 84,000
- **Likes:** 4,473
- **Shares:** 19
- **Comments:** 20

## Tags

missedmisscarriage, ivfjourney, miscarriageawareness, pregnancyloss

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