# @happilyevansafterr on Instagram

- **Type:** Video
- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/DVOcDxOjnZT
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/57741367-happilyevansafterr-instagram
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- **Posted:** 2026-02-26T15:09:00.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Ashley & Steven (@happilyevansafterr) — https://gondola.cc/happilyevansafterr

## Caption

No one tells you what life looks like after infertility. 
They tell you to stay hopeful.
They tell you it’ll all work out.
They tell you: “at least you have your babies now.”

But they don’t tell you that once you’ve known that kind of heartbreak…you never take a pregnancy test lightly again.

We built our family in a way that rewrote me.
Adoption changed me.
It healed parts of me.
It gave me a motherhood I prayed for.

And then seven years later…
a miracle.

The kind you stop believing happens to you.

And now here we are again.
Wanting a third.
Holding a tiny piece of plastic like it carries our entire future.

And I don’t know what this chapter is going to look like.

I don’t know if it’s another miracle.
Or if it’s months of hoping.
Or crying in bathrooms so no one sees.

I don’t know if it’s watching everyone around us get pregnant again…
and wondering quietly, when will it be us?

Infertility doesn’t just go away because you had a baby.
It doesn’t erase itself because you’re “grateful.”

It stays with you.
In the waiting.
In the silence.
In the negative tests.

And sometimes…
it still hurts.

NOT pregnant - And somehow that tiny word still feels heavy.

But so does hope, 
And faith.
And the quiet belief that our story isn’t finished yet.

#pregnancytest #ttcjourney #infertility #infertilitysucks #ttc

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infertility, ttcjourney, infertilitysucks, ttc, pregnancytest

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