# @energytreeanne on Instagram

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- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/CDb3UVvFS-K
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/63247232-energytreeanne-instagram
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- **Posted:** 2020-08-03T17:22:31.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Anne Matthews FABORM TCMP & RAc (@energytreeanne) — https://gondola.cc/energytreeanne

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🌈 This little light of mine... 

I've been hiding it under giant t-shirts for the last 4 months - but it's time that I let it 🕯 shine ☀️ 

🌈 I have always wanted a big family. My children are my greatest source of pride + they give me reason to be a better version of myself + to always (strive) to be kind. I've know that since before I had to have my right ovary removed. I've known that since before I became a fertility focused practitioner. I've known that since before Aiden was born...and before I suffered my fifth miscarriage (and I mean suffered) last December. 

🌈 There's a big difference in my announcing this time. No little shoes. No cute ultrasound pic. No bun. No oven. It's almost like I don't want to jinx it...but I also know the PTSD of miscarriage and infertility, and, having now worked with my beloved fertility patients for over 7 years, I know the sting of these announcements + the last thing that I would ever want to do would be to trigger pain or upset for anyone 💗💗💗. 

🌈...but I also don't want to act as though pregnancy should be seen as a weakness or a secret.  It's been a weird debate in my hamster wheel brain - to say something or to not. 

🌈 So, here we are... with all the joy + love + empathy 🌈 I'm 20 weeks pregnant today. I have my anatomy ultrasound on Wednesday + I'm due the same week I miscarried last year. 

🌈 Yavor and I are incredibly happy + incredibly anxious. Moreover, I am incredibly empathetic to other's journeys (and am going to be working with thefertilemind in the upcoming weeks to create more support groups and safe space for those in need). 

🌈 But most of all...I'm so happy to no longer be hiding this little 🕯. I felt so weird on here for the last few months (+ in real life) because I didn't feel genuine. I'm not one for secrets. And transparency feels so much better for me. 

🌈 I am so grateful to be sharing this with all of you + for your kind 💕 hearts and good vibes. #babynumber5 #december21duedate #wintersolstice

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wintersolstice, babynumber5, december21duedate

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