# @_heartmom_ on Instagram

- **Type:** Video
- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/DFmD1NUpaUS
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/63279587-heartmom-instagram
- **Thumbnail:** https://img.gondola.cc/tr:w-,h-,fo-auto/postThumbnails/5cdccae8bd.jpg
- **Posted:** 2025-02-03T02:57:44.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Kelly McKee Zajfen (@_heartmom_) — https://gondola.cc/_heartmom_

## Caption

Things I’ve learned since you died. 

That I can’t say “Don’t worry. Everything will be okay.” Because I’m not so sure. 

That not everything happens for a reason.

That I can walk away…sometimes things can be overwhelming. 

I can say no. And it’s not about you. It’s about Me. 

You…Georgie Porgie..made me a better person. 

I’m not ever going to be okay. There is forever a layer of sadness that sits on my chest everyday. It’s okay…It’s just that you’re not here. So I’ll try to make friends with that feeling someday. But can’t make promises. 

I have the best of friends. 

There is beauty in strangers who show up. The capacity of others holding space for us and for continuing to speak about Georgie is incredible.

Our hearts, although broken, are the strongest. I understand so clearly now how someone can die of a broken heart. 

I do my very best. But it’s okay to ask for help. 

It feels like yesterday. Time is tricky. The more I have to add time when I tell you he’s gone makes me insane because in my mind it was just yesterday. 

I see things clearly. Almost better. 

I value time. It’s Gold. 

Boundaries are your most valuable tool in your new toolbox. 

Joy can be small. It’s still joyful. Look closely. 

I miss certain people. It’s okay if it was too much. I understand. I really do. 

That 3 am is still the hour I wake up. 2.5 years and counting. Maybe it’s the hour you want me to? What should I do? 

I’ll keep learning. I’ll keep moving forward. I’ll keep crying and loving and trying. And whatever this platform can do I want to be as honest and open as I can. Keep showing up for others. Keep being good and being YOU. It’s not always positive. And that’s okay. ❤️‍🩹

#missyou. #grief #childloss

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