# @adrimoench on Instagram

- **Type:** Video
- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/C3hJEuEsjZi
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/63487372-adrimoench-instagram
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- **Posted:** 2024-02-19T05:48:25.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Trauma Informed Coach / Expanded States (@adrimoench) — https://gondola.cc/adrimoench

## Caption

When your brain wants to tell you the world would be better off without you, I’m here to remind you that your brain is in a state of survival to protect you. 

I’ve felt this way too. When I told people, it was weaponized against me. I see your pain, and those feelings of being too much or not enough, those are real. 

I have felt like I am a burden to others and thought that I would be easing their burden by leaving. I’ve thought of many ways to disappear. I’ve thought how it would be better for everyone if I was gone. I’ve wished I was the one that got to pass on. Because living felt too unbearable some days. And when I told people about how I was feeling, most just told me that I was selfish. 

We are not equipped as a society to support others with empathy in SI. We are told to fear death, fear su1c1d3, and to not talk about it, or shame someone for feeling it.

Wanting to escape the pain of living life in the world I was suffering so deeply in and wanting to exit, I don’t believe there isn’t an SI person that isn’t trying to solve a problem they are facing even in the depths of depression and despair. I don’t believe people choose to feel the way they do when there are so many external forces at play. I believe that when they get to that point where they can’t do one more minute, one more day, one more second, that they just don’t want to do it any more. That level of grief, anguish, pain is not a selfish person on the other end thinking only of themself. It is a deeply impacted person who may not know how to live for who they are in the world they are currently navigating. 

If you are struggling with SI, I see you. I’m here right beside you, fighting the same war. SI forced me to look at my environment I was so desperate to escape and challenge whatever I needed to survive. 

It’s never too late to talk to someone who has walked a similar path nor is it too late to try to challenge the environment you are in. If you are struggling with SI there are others here willing to listen.

The world needs your gifts and experiences. We are waiting to meet you. 

#trauma #cptsd #suicideawarness #si #mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #ocd #traumainformed #rebirth

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ocd, traumainformed, trauma, rebirth, anxiety, si, suicideawarness, depression, mentalhealth, cptsd

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