# @adrimoench on Instagram

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- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/C57j6zBLP-W
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/63487377-adrimoench-instagram
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- **Posted:** 2024-04-19T05:08:33.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Trauma Informed Coach / Expanded States (@adrimoench) — https://gondola.cc/adrimoench

## Caption

As I’ve sat in ceremony over the last year processing trauma, the consistent theme that has continued to come up is the legacy of the silenced women in my ancestral line. 

Many women have shown up in these therapeutic containers both in breathwork and in ceremony. They stand on the outskirts as I built a ring of fire around me. They stood behind me with a single pillar candle in each of their hands, fanning out, thousands of women, I stood at the helm, holding my mother’s hand while passing the torch to my daughter.

Growing up Mormon, I lived in fear for years around the teachings that god was watching me, the dead were watching me - at every moment, I feared judgement. 

In these ceremonies, no one is watching any more. I let go of performative constructs - I lead myself, breaking silence on my story - releasing myself and the past generations from suffering.

Clara Stenhouse and her Mother Fanny Stenhouse are my great great & great great great grandmothers - 

Fanny threatened by excommunication, removed her records from the Mormon church after writing truth about the abusive practices of Mormon polygamy in an expose. Her daughter Clara married Brigham Young’s son as a polygamous 4th wife at 16 when he was 33. He died suddenly a mystery,  suggested alcohol at play - Clara, a widow at 24, with four young children. She remarried a man from Cuba (Agramonte) whom I am a descendant of. Different family accounts allude to abuse she likely endured in both marriages. Clara died at the age of 42. 24 a widow, 42 a death, leaving her children behind motherless. The Mormon church all but erased our heritage through Clara’s sealing of all of her children to Joseph A Young. My aunts recovered Agramonte to our family tree.

As I approach my 42nd birthday I think about Clara often. I am her age when she passed. Trauma mapping my ancestry, legions of women suffered in silence both on my mother’s and father’s side. As I work through my own generational trauma, I transform the essence with those silenced beyond the grave. We Rise Up. 🐍

Reel Quote ✏️ @farahmsiddiq 

#newancestors #ancestralhealing #compassion #alchemy #deconstruction #exmormon #religioustrauma

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religioustrauma, deconstruction, alchemy, compassion, ancestralhealing, newancestors, exmormon

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