# @talorspov on Instagram

- **Type:** Video
- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/DQ-IuRvja9J
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/63505602-talorspov-instagram
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- **Posted:** 2025-11-12T21:06:51.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Talor | Solo Travel & Lifestyle Creator (@talorspov) — https://gondola.cc/talorspov

## Caption

A letter To the place where I let my self hate thrive

It was never the gym I hated. Oh no
It was how I used it to punish myself. The me I hated Now that was toxic
I told myself it was about “health,” but really I just wanted to fix parts of me that I thought were wrong.
I looked in the mirror and saw something that needed to change — a body part to shrink, to tone, to “perfect.” Because that’s what we were taught… “body goals.”

Then I found powerlifting. I thought, finally — something empowering. But even there, I was trying to prove something. Prove that the “big girl” could be strong. Three hours a day, chasing strength but still comparing myself to everyone around me. Even with the medals, I never felt good enough.

And I always wondered — why does the thing that’s supposed to make me feel good actually make me feel the lowest?

So I stopped. I cut it all out. I let myself rebuild from love, not hate. Now, when I move my body, it’s because I want to — not because I need to prove anything.

Because I love me.
Because my body deserves care, not punishment.
And healing that relationship with the gym… was really healing my relationship with me.

Becoming my best self means taking care of the temple that holds me 

#selflove #gymlifestyles #toxicgymculture #mindsetshifts #rebuilding #fyp #dreamlife

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toxicgymculture, dreamlife, mindsetshifts, rebuilding, fyp, gymlifestyles, selflove

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