# @chingxbling on Instagram

- **Type:** Image
- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/CsrhvS1JOb8
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/7146104-chingxbling-instagram
- **Thumbnail:** https://img.gondola.cc/tr:w-,h-,fo-auto/postThumbnails/e6c3217669.jpg
- **Posted:** 2023-05-25T20:48:58.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Glitter, Glitz, Glam | Fashion Model (@chingxbling) — https://gondola.cc/chingxbling

## Caption

POEM BY ME.🌟
I hope you never know the feeling that you feel numb to your core and the feelings from others somewhat becomes questionable. Questionable because I wasn’t taught to feel like you. I wasn’t taught that it was okay to emotionally release. I was taught that powerful women are meant to be strong, show no pain and become so passive that even the biggest daggers couldn’t touch me because I was so used to it. It’s like you become so comfortable with the most obscene and dark humor the world has become. It’s like I was hugged tight against needles and restraints instead of pillows and flowers. But that is not the case. I feel everything until it totally swallows me whole and the emotion I never knew takes over my body. I have become so enraged my belongings regularly flew across the room until my face became beat red of all the anger I carried inside my soul. I have loved so hard that even glass shattering inside of my palms couldn’t stop me from loving you. I have cried so hard the veins crackle inside my eyes becoming red and blood shot until the next morning. I have been so sad I disregarded my own safety and own life. But have you seen the other side? I have also been so happy that the smile on my face has become permanent and I hope it’s how you remember me. I have also been so euphoric that I feel like I can change the world with my mind alone. My heart is covered in scars and tattoos and that never yielded me to grow a garden from them. 
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photos by aria_martir 
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