# @lifesadiscoball on Instagram

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- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/CgLLFVbMA6Y
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/8939811-lifesadiscoball-instagram
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- **Posted:** 2022-07-19T00:58:35.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Heather Petri (@heatherpetri) — https://gondola.cc/heatherpetri

## Caption

Day 20- Overwhelm

I don’t really like to subscribe to the whole ‘highlight reel’ of Instagram. I prefer the behind the scenes reel, with some highlights sprinkled in too. I prefer to create the real reel. Cut the overly curated. 

You can show me the pretty. 

But also give me the down low and dirty. Where’s the imperfect, the hard, the mess? Show it to me.

Today, this is mine. The overwhelm. Another appointment. Another doctor. Another test. Then another. Another referral. Another specialist.

It is death by decisions over here. 
And I’ve reached my limit today.

I’ve screamed with frustration into my empty house, several times today. I’ve pounded my fist on my desk. I’ve stood up and walked outside to ‘cool off’. (But joke’s on me since it’s 97° out there. 😂)

I’m feeling a lot of feels today. They’re unruly and unkempt. They’re freaking coloring outside the lines, and it’s pissing me off. 

I blame the overwhelm. Some days are just like that. And I’ve learned NOT to fight them.

I ride the wave like a surfer. Sometimes I slowly roll to shore. Sometimes I crash into it. Sometimes I bounce around under it, and sometimes I glide on the surface.

It’s what it is. I know it will end. Maybe not as soon as I’d like it to, but it will. Until then, I fasten my board’s ankle strap and ride… 🤙🏻🏄🏼‍♀️

#Day20 #Overwhelm #50tofifty #gracefulwarrior #lifesadiscoball

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lifesadiscoball, gracefulwarrior, overwhelm, 50tofifty, day20

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