# @lifesadiscoball on Instagram

- **Type:** Image
- **Original URL:** https://www.instagram.com/p/Bc--xHngWJj
- **Gondola URL:** https://gondola.cc/posts/8940634-lifesadiscoball-instagram
- **Thumbnail:** https://img.gondola.cc/tr:w-,h-,fo-auto/thumbnails/e2ef80521c.jpg
- **Posted:** 2017-12-22T00:16:40.000+00:00
- **Account Owner:** Heather Petri (@heatherpetri) — https://gondola.cc/heatherpetri

## Caption

I’ve failed at A LOT of things over the years. I’ve let myself down. Let others down. Made numerous mistakes. I’ve struggled. Met obstacles. Felt deep pain. Landed on my face. I’ve cried a thousand tears and smiled a thousand smiles. The journey has had me climb a mountain. Sit in the valley. Climb it again. Reach a peak. And then fall down it. Only to have to climb it again. 
It’s hard for me to look at, because I see so much pain in the girl on the left. Sharing this picture is an exercise in deep vulnerability. Because I don’t like who I see on the left. I feel shame.
And *that* is exactly why I need to share it. To let it go. To dispel all the emotions of never feeling like I was enough. That I didn’t measure up. Wasn’t pretty enough. Small enough. Worth enough. 
The journey to the woman on the right is rooted in accceptance. Confidence. Strength. And grace. Always grace. Because I still make mistakes. I still struggle. I still fall. But I make room for those now.
Yes, my body transformed. Dramatically. But inside. THAT is the biggest change. That has been the true success. Learning to love myself. More. Learning to accept myself. More. Learning to BE MYSELF. More.
I don’t have it down perfectly yet, but I’m learning to stand wholly in who I am. Inside and out.
Training. Lifting. It has taught me the power of showing up and putting in the work. No matter what. It has shown me that strength comes from digging deep and never giving up. It has lead me to the truest and strongest version of myself.
And THAT is something that can never be taken away from me. No matter how hard the year was, I always had this one thing. A bar, some plates and the grit to push myself to another level. One that I never knew possible. And so when the rest of my world feels like it was up in flames or in the shadows, I always knew this would bring me back to me. And the power of possibility.
And for that, I’ll forever be grateful to the team with the big hearts and big muscles at @bodiesbyburgoon. Thank you for leading me back to myself. ♥️
#bigheartsbigmuscles #strength #beingyouisbeingbeautiful

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