I’m completely shocked and horrified and sorry to have to share this update after the past 8 weeks of miraculous joy. My heart is shattered.
I was supposed to be graduating from my IVF clinic today and signing one of the little post-it notes on the door with a message of hope. Instead I left through a discrete back door that I didn’t even know existed.
I’m not sure how to process the shock. I had clear pregnancy symptoms. I still have symptoms. It feels surreal. My doctor was somewhat surprised too, but even with a “healthy” PGT-tested embryo and even though the chances of miscarriage were below 3% at this stage, there are always some people that fall on the sad side of those statistics. And I am one of them.
Tomorrow is my 36th birthday and I was planning for a gender reveal. Instead I’ll have pre-op for a D&C.
I’m so stunned and I’m sorry to anyone that was clinging to my story as a source of hope. What happened to me at this stage was rare, so hold on to your joy.
We will ru...