the height of my modeling career was the height of my unhappiness. whether I was on billboards, or in stores worldwide for an international campaign I never felt the happiness I thought those accomplishments were supposed bring about. it was a different time, most of the time I was the only model of color (they never knew what to do with my hair lol), i felt very isolated and was constantly comparing myself to other models who were exalted that looked nothing like me. at several castings they’d line us up like cattle and pick us one by one like an auction block. saying their negative and positive observations out loud for us to hear. the audacity lol. i had agencies and photographers try to convince to me to strip naked in their offices for polaroids and when I refused they lost interest in working with me. THE AUDACITY. i avoided many predatory situations, but heard tell of many models giving in for promises of success - which some did achieve - but at what cost? i was constantl...