The only footage and content we got from Nationals…. Not gonna lie…, this loss beat me up. I was in a funk for a good minute. It was a bad game day for sure. I put soooooo much into this competing season and to end the way I did was kinda a kick to the tits lol. I knew on stage it was just bad. My tan was sweating off, my suit was annoying, I felt uncomfortable, life was lifing and everything was just off. It was not my best and that’s okay. I saw the stage photos right after and I literally just repressed the show 😂. A loss in lacrosse hasn’t hurt me this bad lol. Time heals all. I took some time to focus on me and the relationships I have in my life. I’m just now comfortable talking about it… posting it. I try to stay raw on here, post the downs just as much as the ups. I don’t mind showing my struggle. And I don’t mind people watching me struggle. I sit here and EMBRACE THE SUCK daily. So here it is… underboob and all. Raw as hell. NPC Nationals I’m starting to get e...