Around this time last year, I was in the same situation as I am now. I enjoyed myself post show and lost a little definition. Last year, I was ashamed with myself. I had such bad body dysmorphia because before I walked on stage, I was SO confident that I would win, I felt so small - I hadn't been that small since early high school years, I was so proud of myself. But I got on stage and realized I was "big" compared to other girls. I beat myself up soooo much and it was hard for me to look at myself and be proud. It took me months after that to find confidence and truly love my body. This year it's different. Today I weighed myself at 136.5, 6 and a half pounds heavier than I was on stage. But this year I understand, I had 3 days of eating and no exercise. Of course I'm going to gain weight. Am I sad? No. Am I going to get back to a healthy lifestyle? Yes. I've learned to love my body no matter what now and that's what matters. ☺ Now back to my reverse diet so that I don't get caught up...