Tl;dr ~ I feel really awkward most days. Lemme explain: I’m not by any means eurocentrically, beauty standardly— pretty. I am beautiful in my own unique ways for sure, but I live in a world where “beauty” is ruled by a set of norms that are forced down my throat everyday. It’s made me jealous, self-hating, anxious, etc and I can’t help it. Sometimes, I just feel like shit because I can’t look the way someone else can in a skate video. I fuck up a move— and I lose all confidence to try it again. strawberry.shortsk8 was so sweet and understanding when I kept having to take breaks because I was having crazy anxiety about filming. I’m not great at this, I’ve never be recognized as someone worth watching and now that I have been it’s like... wow and it’s so hard to shake those feelings I have from all those years I was made out to be this awkward ass mixed girl who had crazy frizzy hair and glasses, who was just smart and that’s it. The attention has helped my confidence for sure, but it’s ...