This is my fourth pregnancy loss, but the first one I haven’t suffered silently. If you didn’t yet have a reference point for something affecting 1 in 4 pregnancies, now you have mine: Day 0: final ultrasound for what was supposed to be 9 week graduation from my IVF clinic. Instead found no heartbeat and a missed miscarriage. Horror & shock. Day 1: Emotional agony. Drove to empty parking lot and turned my speakers all the way up so that I could scream at the top of my lungs for a few seconds in private. Day 2: prep for D&C, hoping we can test the fetal tissue for any potential genetic clues about the loss and prevent prolonged process of miscarrying. Also my 36th bday. Day 3: D&C under anesthesia- don’t even remember being driven home. groggy recovery, lots of sleep. Days 4-6: mild cramping, mild bleeding. watched severance, white lotus, love island. Days 7-8: turn for the worse. feels like going into labor, contractions bring me to my knees for hours. Passing terrifying bl...