Day 9 Diary: What an absolute emotional rollercoaster these last few weeks (and months!) (and years!) have been. Now that the official pregnancy test with my clinic just happened, my mental state is oddly calm. I’ll get a call in a few hours with the results, but even if the hcg concentration is over 50 (which would be GREAT news!!) I would not be in the clear. The most important test would still be to come — I’d need to be back in 48 hours Monday to test again and confirm that number doubled. If it did not double or it’s less than the baseline, I would likely be looking at a chemical pregnancy, which is a cruel & unique kind of devastation. Because of those stakes / sensitivity / uncertainty, I hope you can understand that I’ve decided to wait until Tuesday to share the definitive update on my bloodwork. I need the private time to either grieve or process or confirm or celebrate and to communicate with my family. Regardless of the outcome, I’ll share all the specifics Tuesday an...