“…I had the abortion while my ex was on yet another vacation in which he even started texting with his ex. Later, he tried to make me feel bad for going through the procedure all by myself in the sense that I would be the one who ended the child’s life when really he was the one who made me pregnant, then let me down and went on a holiday instead of supporting me. The one who had convinced me to not use contraception and had told me he wanted a baby with me! Sickening behavior, really.  I was trauma bonded to him and stayed for some more months, then finally managed to break free from this troubled man with such a dark soul. Coming to terms with my abortion has been extremely hard for me. I sought a lot of help and read many books on the topic. I am much further along in my recovery journey than I used to be and yet it feels like I need a little bit more of healing. But especially, I want to stop being ashamed of what happened to me. I used to beat myself up thinking how could I have ...