CW: mentions suicide “I was 16 and a depressed, suicidal mess. I was filled with so much anger and low self-esteem. I sought out validation from someone who never gave it to me. I lived for just a second of their attention. I was young and fell hard in ‘love’ with someone who I thought was in return “loving me”. They didn’t respond to me one day and I decided to take all of my anxiety and depression medication. I later had a seizure and didn’t wake for 4 days. After my psychiatric hospital stay, I decide I wanted to live. It scared me that I wasn’t in control anymore after I took those medications. I loved my family and friends who truly love me. Shortly after returning home, I found out I was pregnant. I was upset but this wasn’t going to bring me to a dark place. I had an abortion and 4 years later I don’t regret my decision. I slowly had to let go of this toxic person and move on. It was so hard. To this day my emotions are all over the place towards him. I have to keep moving forw...