I also had an incredibly vivid dream of loss the night after my ultrasound and I’m trying to tell myself that it wasn’t a premonition, but combined with the vague but physically-insistent feeling that something is off in some way, it’s extremely difficult to get out of my head my right now. Tried forcing myself to be excited yesterday and it’s just not working. Rational minds would reassure me that the odds of another MMC with a PGT tested embryo are very low (~1.5%) at this stage, and that this could just be anxiety manifesting physically since it’s the same week that I lost my last pregnancy, but I’m likely going to try to get into my IVF clinic earlier than scheduled next week. (private scan not an option bc I can’t find any that offer transvaginal vs abdominal and Doppler is too high risk at this point) Anyway that’s where we’re at this weekend. Trying my best to be as transparent as possible, day by day. 🤍 #ivf #ivfpregnancy #mmc #pregnancyafterloss #firsttrimester