I found out Ryder has VLCAD when she was 2 days old. I was holding this perfect child in my hands and didn’t know how to make her better. I had never felt so broken in my life. ---------- VLCAD is a condition in which the body is unable to break down certain fats. Basically Ryder’s body can not break down the fat she eats that turns into energy that your body needs to function. Durning this time I felt so alone, ashamed, and constantly beat myself up because I just didn’t understand why. For the first six months I would have to feed her every 2 hours, I did not sleep, I was on high alert at all times. ---------- We went to the doctor regularly and each time I prepared myself for the worst. One day I was home and watching her sleep.. I made a choice that I could no longer feel bad or guilty. I put all my energy into finding out more information, learning everything about her condition, learning how to keep her healthy. ---------- I started talking about it more and realizing I am not a...