EXCLUSIVE: In his first interview since the BAFTAs, “I Swear” subject #JohnDavidson explains the Tourette’s tics that led to his N-word outburst and says “I felt a wave of shame.” “I was hoping people would understand. My mind was saying: These people have seen the film. They will know I can’t help this. They will know it’s not me. This is exactly why we are here. I was saying in my head, ‘Please don’t judge me. Please understand this isn’t who I am.’” Davidson has faced backlash online after shouting the n-word during Sunday night’s ceremony while #MichaelBJordan and #DelroyLindo were on stage presenting. Since the fallout, Davidson’s team shares that he’s reached out to the studio handling “Sinners” in order to directly apologize to Jordan, Lindo and production designer Hannah Beacher. Click the link in bio to read the full interview.