At church today we spoke about forgiveness and what it means to carry the pain of needing to forgive. In my grief journey, I’ve worked on forgiving myself and even God. There was still a part of me holding onto the pain of needing to forgive someone else, my doctors. I don’t blame them for losing Jett. These things can happen so quickly. What I’ve struggled with is the months leading up to his loss. I shared concerns about his lack of movement, was told he looked perfect on ultrasounds, and when I asked about NSTs, non-stress tests to monitor baby’s movement and heart rate. I was reassured they weren’t needed. I listened, and to this day I will never know if anything would have changed. Carrying that anger and guilt has taken a toll on me. Today, I finally let that pain go. I haven’t cried that hard in so long. Today was a good day🤍✝️ #stillborn #grief #fyp #foryoupage #infantloss