When I started to deconstruct patriarchy there was ample shame I took on not realizing it came from internalized misogyny. My process didn’t start with anger but instead with shame. I berated myself for not being smarter, for not knowing better. Instead of looking at how the system had taught me as a woman to endlessly submit myself to dominance - instead of being angry at what I wasn’t taught by those responsible for teaching me as a child - I was angry at myself, and felt so much shame at how I perceived myself to be a complete idiot. Like I should have known better as a child. As women, especially in my case, I was often told I was “too much” - yet the more I learn about the systems in place that I constricted myself in invisibility, not knowing any better, so as to hide more heightened emotions. The more self shame and judgement I put on myself, the more I felt the emotions I felt. It was amplified, and electrifying sometimes to just feel. As I dove into therapy I tried to a...