I walked into church carrying thoughts I hadn’t told many people. I walked out convinced God had been speaking directly to me. WARNING: Long confessional w/ multiple captions. Read if you care or dare Before worship rehearsal even started, our head pastor hadn’t arrived yet. His son told our worship team that he was experiencing heavy spiritual warfare over the message he would be preaching in both services and asked us to pray for God’s strength and protection over him. He even asked me to lead the prayer. At the time, I didn’t think much of it. Then the sermon started. The message centered around our relationships (parents, spouses, coworkers, and friends) but underneath all of it was one issue: the fear of rejection and believing you’re unworthy of love. My pastor described it as having an “orphan spirit.” It’s believing you constantly disappoint people. It’s being afraid of becoming a burden. It’s believing you’re not worth loving. Eventually those lies lead to loneliness, isolat...