I have thought a lot about whether to share this. I’ve ultimately decided to share it because I think silence on this is its own kind of harm. Three children are gone. A father has lost everything. A mother is on trial. None of those things cancel each other out. Holding grief for all of it at once is the only honest response. What this trial has cracked open for so many mothers who are watching is something that was already there. The knowledge of how hard this is. How alone it can feel. How completely the world expects you to manage. I have five kids, a psychoanalyst mother who gave me language for my feelings my whole life, a partner who shows up every single day, and every possible resource. And I have still had my moments in eight years of continuous postpartum. If that’s true for me, I cannot stop thinking about the women carrying this with none of those things. Postpartum Support International: 1-800-944-4773. If you need it, please use it. #postpartum #mentalhealthsupport...