Yes I hate the holidays, every holiday, every birthday, every valentine's I find myself single and alone. Every girl I been with has lied to me, cheated on me beyond all belief or doesn't want anything serious and leads me on. The hurt I feel I don't think I can take another year of it... take another year of being forgotten, being over looked for being the nice guy. Or someone throwing your a friend in my face after saying they wish they had a good guy. One of these days.... I may really never wake up l. I want to go home to paradise, and ending myself will grant me eternity in hell, so broken and soaked with pain I can't locate the strength to battle my darkness anymore. #endmylife #suffering #suicidal #dreamforever #lonley