“My very first deployment was to Iraq. We were the second rotation of boots on the ground after 9/11. For my second deployment, we traveled to Afghanistan in 2011. Everybody comes back from deployment different. None of us come back the same. You develop; you see more; you experience more; you want to be more isolated or alone; there is less going out and doing stuff with my friends. I was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder. You never think about suicide. You don’t understand it until it happens to you. I called the [Freedom Support Center], but not to get help from them. I called [the vet center] cursing [the therapist] out because I wanted her to tell my husband to give me my gun. She says, “No, I’m not doing that.” And I said, “How can you tell me I can’t take my own life? It’s my life. I do what I want to do with it. Tell him to give me a gun.” She said, “You need to go check yourself in the hospital.” I got some medications that work with me and help balance me out...